I will be waking up at the butt crack of dawn tomorrow to get on a bus to poland and drive for three and a half hours to patiently and eagerly wait for my interns to arrive. It’s starting to hit me now. The responsibilities and challenges I accepted as I agreed to this leadership position. But if I am completely honest with myself, my heart is anxious, my insecurities are flooding in. I am not adequate or equipped or experienced enough to be leading these interns, I’ve never even been an intern myself! And they are all older than I am. Why would they listen to the authority of a 5 foot, soft spoken 20 year old?! But as I dwell on my own weaknesses, I am reminded of how I seem to neglect His truths and promises of provision and strength. My confidence is not in my own flesh, oh no. My confidence is solely in Christ and Christ alone. For alone, how I fall so short, but in Him, I may boldly approach the throne of God and ask for wisdom and discernment to lead my team well, reflecting His great love and grace and mercy. Oh, how quick am I to forget, how foolish even. But He is so patiently and gently reminds me daily. And dawn quickly approaches and the interns slowly start to arrive, I’ll have to preach those truths to myself again and again. And as we participate in the amazing race and as we go through training and face challenges and teach English and share the Gospel for the next three months, I will habitually have to remind myself again and again. and when I go back to the states and back to school and work, again and again will I marinate myself in His word. Until my dying day or when the good Lord returns, I will never get enough of His great love and mercy for me.